So it all started on Thursday when I went in for an ultrasound. The second the Dr. looked at Ema's chest he said there was no heartbeat. I was in disbelief. I just broke down and kicked him out of the room. After I composed myself I called Rob and he left work and came to the dr's office. We talked with the dr and he said that our baby girl was gone and I would have to deliver her and they would induce me. I would be called to the hospital within the next 48 hours.
Finally on Saturday morning they called me and said to come down. We got to Marian around 10am and got all checked in. At 12pm they starting the inducing by inserting 2 Cytotec pills into my cervix. They did this every 4 hours. Finally on my 3rd dose I started having regular but mild contractions. I chose to have the PCA pain meds so I could get some rest because I knew it was going to be a long night. Finally at 12am they started the Pitocyn. I was still at 0cm. My contractions started to get a little more intense but dealable. I went all day Sunday with medium contractions and still not dilating. At 12pm Sunday they upped the Pitocyn and my contractions went into full force. The pain meds weren't helping anymore but I thought I could handle it. Finally at 8:30pm I said screw it and had them do an Epidural. Right after they put in the Epidural my Dr came in and broke my water. I was finally able to take a nap. At 11:30pm Sunday night my nurse came in and was just going to change my pad under me but I woke up with this sudden urge to push. She checked me and I was at 10cm. Apparently I needed the epidural. She called my Dr and I started pushing once he got there. I pushed twice and Ema was born. I finally had the VBAC and natural birth I had always wanted. Once I delivered the placenta we could also see what the cause of death was, Ema only turned one way inside of me and twisted the cord so tight it pinched it off. My Dr. said she would have made a fancy dancer.
Ema Tagikiama Jenny Miscoi was stillborn at 11:58pm on 2/28/2010. She weighed 1lbs 2oz and was 13.5in long. She looked just like her sister did just a lot smaller. She already had a full head of hair. We were able to spend several hours with her and at 11am Monday morning they took her. We got lots of pictures and they gave us a keepsake box for everything. We have hand and foot prints. We also had her baptized right after she was born.
I came home on Tuesday morning. We are having Ema cremated and will have her home next week. I never in my life thought this would happen to us and I still cry every night. We will try again and just pray that our next baby will make it full term.
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